AFFIRMATIONS DIVINE

Fraidy Cat

That’s me.

Years ago it seemed like very little bothered me, but all that changed.

Now, without any special cues, I can morph into a Fraidy Cat.

If anyone wants to know what can go wrong in any given situation,

Your go-to girl is me.

This personal information may shock you a bit because…..

everybody knows I’m so positive and happy.

O.k., who am I kidding?

There may be a few people that actually know I’m a very fearful cat……

EXCEPT…….I’m changing.

The change all started about 15 years ago, when my greatest fears materialized.

And then little by little,

I learned about survival.

Bravery did not spring upon me all at once.

First came the conditioning.

You remember Pavlov and the dogs salivating at the sound of his bell?

Those dogs didn’t need the food anymore for the mouthwatering experience to materialize.

Only the bell.

Intense conditioning was required for my faith to materialize

To start my conditioning, I ordered a tape with bible verses on fear, and would play it in my van.

Funny, that’s how long ago it was, I got a tape, not a cd.

Next I got a guided imagery tape, where I walked into the forrest, into the light, and the light put it’s arms around me, and I was safe.

That tape never ceased to calm me down, and I wore it out.

My three teenagers, were sure I was crazy, but I told them not to mock, this was helping.

Tender new branches were emerging in my brain, as I fought to stay sane, and brave.

To their credit, they did their talking about their momma,

behind my back.

Finally, I keep going ,”into the forrest toward the light”,

without further harassment.

 You see, I was distressed.

My danger was no longer impending….

I’d landed smack dab in the middle of it.

The destruction, dismay, evil, and pain,

descended upon my spirit, almost overnight.

But I had had almost no conditioning.

After several years of conditioning, I noticed something different about me.

Tolerance.

 All my conditioning had built quite a tolerance.

People started calling me brave and strong.

That was funny.

Me?

 “Miss Fraidy Cat” turned brave?

Truth is I was not brave, I was angry.

Sometimes those two can be confused.

Once I faced the cold hard facts that the bad stuff would never be over,

I was ticked.

Everybody I loved one day was going to die, and that included me.

Furthermore, with every breath I took, I brought this future misery closer.

Really, I thought,

Why breathe?

If I was not such a Fraidy Cat…..

But then one day, one predestined day,

my walk in the forrest, took different path,

I walked into the light of the world

Jesus

I told Jesus, how upset I was about all my fears, and just how exhausted I was with being afraid.

Jesus wrapped his arms around me and he whispered,

“I love you”.

“You are Safe”.

I cried out my eyes.

I cried out my fears, past, present and future.

And then I knew in my heart,

Life is not worth living without a leap of faith.

Because no matter what happens,

or when it happens,

I am safe.

Now that was a real miracle for this Fraidy Cat.

It’ll work for you too.